I have started applying color to my mothers portrait and things seem to be going in the right direction. On the first night I laid in some of the general flesh tones and tried to sculpt her face. I also added a grey background color which didn't turned out the way I wanted it to. I wanted the grey to be on top of the neutral brown I had underneath and for this color to show through the loose grey strokes. I guess I got paint happy since the I ended up covering the whole surface.
I decided to wipe off the grey and forget about that idea. At this point I was not sure as to where I was going and fear kicked in again and left the painting to "dry" so that I could glaze more colors. The drying excuse was just a way to stay away from this painting I'm afraid of ruining.
At this point I can't think about fear any more since I've pushed the painting further. Las night I worked on the portrait some more and was very happy with what I got done. After taking a break by surfing the web, I went back to look at the painting and my feelings about it changed. I like the resemblance to my mother. In the earlier stages of the painting she looked like she had gotten in a fight and her lips and nose were swollen. Now it looks more like her but in a plastic way. I went too heavy with the pinks. I kept saying that she looks like a plastic doll and that the painting looks more like an acrylic than oil. No offence to those who work in acrylic. I'm in my warrior mood today and I will be tackling this piece for a few hours tonight before I go to bed. Wish me luck!